Tomorrow I take off for Africa and I feel very emotional about it all.
I am really sad about leaving these boys. Like if I think about it I cry, a lot…
I had a horrible dream last night. The kind you shouldn’t have before you fly thousands of miles away from your babies. It has me praying desperately for their protection.
I am excited to take a new adventure with this boy.
I am praying that God begins to work in his heart and open him up to all that he could be and do. Praying his heart grows. I am also praying that our relationship can be made stronger.
I am going to miss this man more than I can even know right now. He helps makes me sane when I find myself lost in my head. He encourages me to believe in myself when I can’t and even more so he believes in me. I am praying that God will bless him.
I am a mess today and I am ok with that. That makes me who I am….